"I'm in luv" dedicating to my beloved............

It is dark n' silence,the sounds are only of the insects,i wake up.....,sleep doesn't come for long time,i get up n' sit on the chair,take a pen n' paper n' start scribbling in it..........Then i tire,i sit with my head resting in the back of my chair.What not come in my mind,then i feel,i'm struggling very hard for my way out,i can not breath properly n' i can not relax too.Something is coming down my cheek wetting my whole face,i don't know for sure if it is tears but i rub it off.I feel i am too alone,with no one beside me.I take my mind somewhere else,i hear a familiar voice calling me but i know there is no one.There is no physical load in my shoulder but my heart is heavy n' i am exhausted.Then i get up n' go out,a chilled cool air run through my veins,i feel extremely cold.I sit out for a while looking the fading stars n' the moon,then somehow i see myself talking to them,i don't know if i am insane,well thank god i am not.Then again i start seeing a strange vision,i am in wild,running here n' there,screaming n' shouting,trying to reach something which is not within reach n' no,it's not real too.Suddenly i hear my heart murmuring something that i can not catch,all the while i am silent in the dark cold night.I can not stand properly,then say good bye to the stars n' the moon n' go back in the room.I sit on the same chair,rest my heavy head on the table n' try to relax.But all the while i am searching something..........There are various questions in my mind,i sit there for a while thinking all sorts of things n' the same time,i hear the bell of twelve,so go to bed,lay down,close my eyes,take a long breath.....and smile,i am astonished and a queer feeling arise in my heart.I can not sleep coz i get the answer ''I Am In LuV''
Miss,now Mrs,Bharati Limbu
Damak,Jhapa.